The Heartbreak
Ever since I was younger I never really been the type to day dream, talk, or plan out my future wedding. Although I always looked at wedding dresses and wanted the most gorgeous, glamorous gowns just for show, I never really thought about actually getting married. I never really cared, but perhaps maybe because the relationships I seen were not worth dreaming of...and when your young, what your around is all you know...
During and after high school my mind was set on one thing; I knew I wanted to be in LA and that's where I was going. My most exciting days was when I first moved to LA. For the first time in my life I was getting what I always dreamt of when I was a little girl. I got to be in TV shows, movies, magazines, attend award shows, meet my favorite celebrities - everything was a first, and everything was amazing...and never once did I choose to "de-moralize" myself in the process.
Then the day came where I met someone who made me believe in all that I never had and made me want the things I never cared for. I thought I was the luckiest lady in the world, and in my head I put this person on a pedestal. I use to ask myself, "How did I get an amazing guy like this?" Because I thought this person was my future, I thought all the excitement I was living was worth letting go because I valued his love before my very own dreams...then alllll the cheating and lies caught up to him. This is when I learned that people show you who they are the first time around. If only I had walked away after the first lie I could have saved myself from much heartache and maybe more importantly, my time. Furthermore, I learned someone who cares will never rob you from your happiness; it takes an unselfish person to understand and support the goals you need to accomplish first.
Till this day, that period in my life was one I learned so much from, but it has also acted as a double edge sword. Although it has taught me many lessons, at times the effects has also made me miss out on so much...
I believe life is a continuing learning process. Not everything will be mastered, but that's the intent, because then we have no choice but to do our best to improve on what was left of us.
During and after high school my mind was set on one thing; I knew I wanted to be in LA and that's where I was going. My most exciting days was when I first moved to LA. For the first time in my life I was getting what I always dreamt of when I was a little girl. I got to be in TV shows, movies, magazines, attend award shows, meet my favorite celebrities - everything was a first, and everything was amazing...and never once did I choose to "de-moralize" myself in the process.
Then the day came where I met someone who made me believe in all that I never had and made me want the things I never cared for. I thought I was the luckiest lady in the world, and in my head I put this person on a pedestal. I use to ask myself, "How did I get an amazing guy like this?" Because I thought this person was my future, I thought all the excitement I was living was worth letting go because I valued his love before my very own dreams...then alllll the cheating and lies caught up to him. This is when I learned that people show you who they are the first time around. If only I had walked away after the first lie I could have saved myself from much heartache and maybe more importantly, my time. Furthermore, I learned someone who cares will never rob you from your happiness; it takes an unselfish person to understand and support the goals you need to accomplish first.
Till this day, that period in my life was one I learned so much from, but it has also acted as a double edge sword. Although it has taught me many lessons, at times the effects has also made me miss out on so much...
I believe life is a continuing learning process. Not everything will be mastered, but that's the intent, because then we have no choice but to do our best to improve on what was left of us.