Follow Your Bliss

Recently I’ve figured out how much easier it has been to accept things, and as they say, accepting the things you cannot change… Maybe it comes with age… spiritual growth… or heck, maybe it comes from living a tough life, all I know is that for me it came with age and life experience.   Throughout high school and throughout my early 20’s, I had such a hard time accepting that all the things I wanted, all the things I had planned for, wasn’t really working out for me.   What was interesting was that the more I tried to obtain it, the more hurt I would become and the angrier I would get.   In some ways I guess you could say I created my own sadness.    When I look back I realize no matter what my beliefs are, God Still has his plan and I can’t always alter everything, because some things are truly not meant to be. So because “things” hurt, doesn’t mean they shouldn’t be valued.   That certain “someone” or “something” has usually given me a lot more then I had ever asked for…someti

“Be thankful for what you have; you'll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don't have, you will never, ever have enough.” – Oprah Winfrey As you probably already know, life has a way of making it easy to forget all the incredible things we already have when we’re putting so much focus on the things we don’t have… Sometimes I catch myself falling into a zone where all I can think about are the things I want and have no way of obtaining anytime soon; it makes me feel hopeless.   However, there are times where I literally had to look at the clock and tell myself that at this very moment, I have EVERYTHING I could ever need…and usually I remind myself of how grateful I should be for my health, my family and the people who I am surrounded by daily.   I couldn’t imagine how life would be without my friends, my roommates and my co-workers…my job… I just feel the more I count my blessings, the less there is to be upset about. With that being said, I have everythi

This is how I know I’m aging… Its interesting looking back and realizing how I have changed. (probably similar to the way many have.) One thing I have developed is patience.   Five years ago I wouldn’t have had the patience for children or animals…basically anything that required my assistance or attention.   For instance, when I’m hanging out with my five-year-old cousin, I don’t mind getting her dressed before me or how slow she takes with certain things. Lol Actually, I find I enjoy being able to help this little person:-)  Now a days, I have this nurturing tendency where I feel like I need to take care of someone or something! Lol   I think this is the main reason why I want a puppy :-D  I just want to be able to share loving energy and take care of something :-)

Anytime I write a song, my inspiration is usually heartbreak.  It almost seems as though I can’t write about anything else when it comes to my music; or could it be that-that’s all I can write about because that’s all I have known? When I started working on my newest song, I wanted so badly to have something good to say, but if I did, my lyrics wouldn’t be true and I’m all about writing my life experiences.  I’m not trying to sound like a downer, because I’m not, but it seriously gets to the point where I start to wonder if something like love and stuff even exist for me.  I mean, I know it exist in the world because I see people around me who share it– I guess you can say that those peoples happiness are the ones who are giving me hope. See, up until recently, I thought a good relationship between two people was one where you weren’t being hit or cussed at.  With that being said, my standards were never high and so I never really knew how I should have been treated and what I w

Religion is just one of those topics its always safe to stay away from, right?  Maybe if your telling this to someone who is not open minded... People believe what they want to believe.  People will share their opinions no matter what. Great! Cause no matter what is right or what is wrong, what is right is that we are ALL entitled to our OWN beliefs.  There is only "right or wrong" answers to those who don't respect another persons beliefs.  Clearly, we don't have to all share the same beliefs, but we can certainly be respectful towards what another person believes in. There was once and Indian poet I read about, and his name is Rajchandra.  He specified that no religion was superior because they all brought people closer to God.  So, if there is one thing that confuses me about all this its, why do people get so heated when they talk about religions? Why, when all religions (at least the ones i know of) are there for a greater good?  Where's the good that you

For many years I believed the only person who could truly bring me happiness was myself.  I think it was this reason that bandaged the wounds of living independently - too independently. Don't get me wrong, I think one of the best qualities in a person is them being able to stand on their own two feet and support themselves in all ways, especially financially.  If there is one thing I take pleasure in, its knowing I can do just that.  However,  it shouldn't be a justification in claiming you don't need anyone - by anyone, I mean a partner in life. So can I do mostly everything on my own? Pretty much. If I can't, I'll find the way to pay someone no matter my financial circumstances.  Even though I have not changed as a person, my views continue to change....I'm finding that even though I have and will continue to bring my own happiness, there is something much more that comes along with a committed, loving companionship.  I like to see this kind of happiness

There are certain things I’m starting to experience, rather then just reading or hearing about, where I can finally say I believe that when you give to the universe, the universe finds ways to give back to you… When reading one of my books by Steven Covey, I came across this, “Service is the rent we pay to live here on Earth,” I had thought the idea sounded nice and hoped that actually following through with it would feel just as good – I was wrong, it feels even better. I feel like when I take the time to care about other people - people I don’t know and will never meet, there is a special feeling you receive for putting some good out there for a piece of the world to have.  All I can say is, I don’t think I’ve ever felt so grateful to know that I’m helping someone else.

...sometimes you have to make plans as if there was no one else in the world...

"Sometimes things fall apart so that better things can fall together" is a quote by Marilyn Monroe that I love - I love it because there are so many times where things don't go according to planned... Its as though there is some comfort in knowing things go wrong for all the right reasons.  What other way to look at a situation you don't want to be in or that you wish could have been different?  What's the use of being upset over something when you have no control of the past and all the hope in the world for the future? When all else fails, I look forward to my favorite part of the day.... knowing I get to dream - when everything I could ever want, is everything i've always had. 

I was reading an interview with Jennifer Lopez in Aprils' People magazine, and there was a question that really caught my attention.  The interviewer asked JLO if she felt better about herself now then she did when she was in her 20's. She responded with, "Yes. I feel better, I feel smarter.  In my 20's I just wasn't there in my mind and my soul and my spirit..." Many women who I've spoken to, that are older then me, often say they felt better about themselves and about their life once they reached their 30's - which makes me feel somewhat at ease.  Maybe because parts of me feel so incomplete.  This is not to say I'm unhappy, because I'm a happy person and I'm extremely grateful for all I have; however, there are pieces of me that don't feel right - like I'm missing something, or like there has been a sense of loss somewhere. After I read her full interview, i of course admired her pictures but not because of her beauty, but b

I remember once there was this guy I dated and I have to be honest…he was an attractive guy and fun to hangout with, but I automatically knew I could never see myself with him in my future.   Now I look back and ask myself why? I mean, how could that be if I never gave him a chance?   Truth be told, I didn’t want to give him a chance, but only because I knew in my heart it could never be.   Is that something a person automatically knows?   It must be…could it be that –that was one of Gods gifts he gave to us?   An unknown, somewhat psychic ability to determine if someone is right for us, whether we know them or not? All I can say is, I too, have been in his shoes before just as many others have and its not a great feeling knowing someone automatically knows they can’t see themselves with you – it doesn’t even have to do with you liking the person, but it has to do with you being rejected.   The let down is in hearing that you can never be that “special person” to someone.   We as

Well, well, well…I guess some things one shouldn’t take to heart.   You put something out there for the public to criticize and you best believe people will give their opinion whether it be good or bad…duh!!! LOL   With that being the case, I believe it never means their right and it never means their wrong.   To me, everything is about perspectives.   The good thing about perspectives is that you get to believe what’s right for you . Lately I feel like I’ve been rejected left and right non-stop!   Sometimes I wonder how much more a soul can take, but I do have to remind myself this is something I chose to do.   I guess my take on that is that rejection is part of the recipe to my definition of success.   I know whatever I do in my life this rejection has made me better in certain areas.   What they are I may not know at this moment, but I have to have faith that the answers will surface later and that it will all turn out for the better.   On the other hand, it has also made

Why Why am I this way Feeling nothing good I’m nothing great This echos through my thoughts its engraved in my heart How did I begin to feel this way Its you You did this to me Save me, save me I’m lost Hear me, hear me Set me free Believe, believe See something in me Please If there’s no you I’m nothing All they’re They’re pretty words Slowly cripple me They pull me in How naïve could I be I hoped to be wanted Would have been so sweet But it’s because of Neglectful, evil me I walk over I see your down I paint your lips I color your eyes In hopes to hide What they can’t see This mirror doesn’t lie to me Its you You did this to me Save me, save me I’m lost Hear me, hear me Set me free Believe, believe See something in me Please If there’s no you I’m nothing

I think that someday, some guy will prove me wrong after all.... :-)

There's this book I like to refer to every time I date a guy. Its called, "He's Just Not THAT Into You." It really saves a lot of time talking about whether or not someone likes you. Honestly, since I've read that book I don't think I've ever been "confused" with what a guy tells me because if he doesn't want to be with me, he won't. Period. Now, obviously I'm not a man, so what do I REALLY know, right? I don't know, BUT I can feel and I feel that "reasons" are excuses. I don't like excuses, it doesn't make me feel too good and I would assume it wouldn't make you feel to good either. Enough said.

So I read my last post and I did it. I'm afraid the decision I made wasn't wise, but it was needed. I left what was "secure" and I'm taking a chance, but in my beliefs, "when you do what you love, the universe supports you," so if I follow what I love, maybe I wont go wrong after all. I've always made "life" moves I was afraid to make, but I knew I had to take the risk. What I haven't always done was made moves I knew I needed to before it was too late, until recently. Its just another "type" of cycle I had to break. I tend to stay within certain situations because of my current feelings or emotions without thinking about the consequences to the answer i already knew....