Follow Your Bliss

I was reading an interview with Jennifer Lopez in Aprils' People magazine, and there was a question that really caught my attention.  The interviewer asked JLO if she felt better about herself now then she did when she was in her 20's. She responded with, "Yes. I feel better, I feel smarter.  In my 20's I just wasn't there in my mind and my soul and my spirit..." Many women who I've spoken to, that are older then me, often say they felt better about themselves and about their life once they reached their 30's - which makes me feel somewhat at ease.  Maybe because parts of me feel so incomplete.  This is not to say I'm unhappy, because I'm a happy person and I'm extremely grateful for all I have; however, there are pieces of me that don't feel right - like I'm missing something, or like there has been a sense of loss somewhere. After I read her full interview, i of course admired her pictures but not because of her beauty, but b

I remember once there was this guy I dated and I have to be honest…he was an attractive guy and fun to hangout with, but I automatically knew I could never see myself with him in my future.   Now I look back and ask myself why? I mean, how could that be if I never gave him a chance?   Truth be told, I didn’t want to give him a chance, but only because I knew in my heart it could never be.   Is that something a person automatically knows?   It must be…could it be that –that was one of Gods gifts he gave to us?   An unknown, somewhat psychic ability to determine if someone is right for us, whether we know them or not? All I can say is, I too, have been in his shoes before just as many others have and its not a great feeling knowing someone automatically knows they can’t see themselves with you – it doesn’t even have to do with you liking the person, but it has to do with you being rejected.   The let down is in hearing that you can never be that “special person” to someone.   We as

Well, well, well…I guess some things one shouldn’t take to heart.   You put something out there for the public to criticize and you best believe people will give their opinion whether it be good or bad…duh!!! LOL   With that being the case, I believe it never means their right and it never means their wrong.   To me, everything is about perspectives.   The good thing about perspectives is that you get to believe what’s right for you . Lately I feel like I’ve been rejected left and right non-stop!   Sometimes I wonder how much more a soul can take, but I do have to remind myself this is something I chose to do.   I guess my take on that is that rejection is part of the recipe to my definition of success.   I know whatever I do in my life this rejection has made me better in certain areas.   What they are I may not know at this moment, but I have to have faith that the answers will surface later and that it will all turn out for the better.   On the other hand, it has also made

Why Why am I this way Feeling nothing good I’m nothing great This echos through my thoughts its engraved in my heart How did I begin to feel this way Its you You did this to me Save me, save me I’m lost Hear me, hear me Set me free Believe, believe See something in me Please If there’s no you I’m nothing All they’re They’re pretty words Slowly cripple me They pull me in How naïve could I be I hoped to be wanted Would have been so sweet But it’s because of Neglectful, evil me I walk over I see your down I paint your lips I color your eyes In hopes to hide What they can’t see This mirror doesn’t lie to me Its you You did this to me Save me, save me I’m lost Hear me, hear me Set me free Believe, believe See something in me Please If there’s no you I’m nothing